Uncertainty floods my heart and I really don't know what to think. Should the love I have for this man remain the same? We planned marriage, it sounded wonderful and I promised total commitment; but will he? They say once a cheater always a cheater.... Does anyone ever speak of forgiveness?

I used to be the one who didn't want a monogamous relationship... Fun was all that was on my mind; till I met him. My heart told me to stay away and that this man will be different. For some odd reason I knew I would fall inlove with him, but I didn't want that yet. But now, it's too late. I became that woman who gave her whole heart to a man whom she loves.

This man cheated once before with another girl, but so had I with another man. I called it even and shut off the concern in the back of my mind. After 8 months I moved to Illinois and he stayed in Texas. It drove him to desperation and he once again did something that disgusts me to the point of purging. I do not know how to erase it from my mind; it haunts me every second of every day. He left her, didn't want anything else but the sexual satisfaction; used her for her body.

We fought over, and over again trying to keep eachother together. The communication was almost severed into the past; I didn't let go. He told me what had happened; I sat there in bitter shivers and rage, my heart knew there was a decision to be made. As I straight out told him no that it wasn't going to work out, there were no tears that came down; just numbness. One last chance, one last chance he begged of me; just give me one last chance.

This man, this man is now moving to Illinois to be with me. He claims I am the only one he wants and that he still wants my hand in marriage. Now, all my heart knows is that I love this man, but trust will be exceedingly difficult to obtain once again. Worry, doubt, and fear all flood through my thoughts while I wait for his arrival. Now tell me...

Is this man worth it?